I am doing to find hair. I am hoping that you guys have been taking time to learn and to grow and to heal and have been taking care of yourselves. I hope you guys have been taken time to introspect and find your your connections and holding up you and finding things that are holding you back and keeping you from living your best in life that is awesome. I hope you have been enjoying the articles thus far. I hope that it has been helping you evolve and grow and understand like it's been really helping me evolve and develop and find out who chase you guys for watching. You guys can see I got eyeglasses I had been somewhat worried about getting these after a million one make me seem like Edna from B Incredibles but I really really enjoy the look I actually really enjoy this entire you know circle fight that I got going on here. Anyway so today what I want to speak about today is my dwelling in vain today this is in fact one of my favourite, among my absurd eyes my lips was a she it is my living in vain today this is in fact one of my among my beloved Clarke six sister songs. I absolutely absolutely absolutely love this song there was a point of time in my life where this song you understand was similar to the soundtrack for my life and I would like it can't be a soundtrack there's only one song but that is the only way I can describe it it was like the soundtrack to my life.
Is my living in vain I went even though I had been on the planet as the church would say I was in the world I was a church woman in mind my connection with God my religious journey my religious balance my spiritual health all of that stuff is is of the utmost importance to me. I'd do anything and I am still learning how to you restrain my flesh and understand denied my flesh and make choices you understand unto Him. Because in the end of the day that's the only person who I'm trying to please and is my living in vain was a tune that just spoke in a way that is profound.
Mike is my dwelling in vain it's my life in vain that is it mean for me personally it was the question that I would ask myself. When I would think about my life like Motivation many other individuals in the world I have been through my share of trials and tribulations and for a long time those experiences tormented me and once I state torment to me resembles the the constant replay that goes on within our heads or things which have happened things that people said things that people done things that we've done . You know all that stuff would just replay in my head constantly and it'd be not just a psychological distress it will become an emotional torment and we become a cycle that you understand a heart type of battle that I would have with my heart it'd develop into a battle that I will begin to have in my soul because I then start battling myself trying to create things cease and then I just make things worse, since I find wrong approaches and unhealthy ways to make things cease because it feels great or I felt good in that moment and it only became something no it just became my life became an whole cycle repeated over and over and over and over and over again just constant it only constantly proceed and constantly moving constantly simply replaying like a film a really really bad fucked up film. Also my main thing was and they just would not fucking wind and that is has always been my belief system where I got this, and I don't know but honestly I don't understand where I have gotten this belief system.
I don't understand I could not pinpoint the moment in my life where you understand this is how I felt but I just know for a lengthy time this is the way I felt and this song you know it only expressed that it is my living in vain. No of course not it is not all in vain no up the road is game. Let us go through situations we go through circumstances. We proceed to bad relationships. We proceed through you know fucked up situations. We go to fall workouts and dropped with our friends. We face job issues. We go to beauty standards. We go through so much we are told we're supposed to be women were told guys are advised how they are supposed to function as men. Mothers have been told how they are supposed to be as moms and that I know that that sounds somewhat contradictory particularly if you accompany me on Instagram since I make comments about parents, told so much we're told so much but nobody shows us the way to deal so if we encounter these situations when we undergo these trials in those tribulations once we feel like the street is on our shoulders and we all feel like everything is out for us.